January 25, 2013

Five Minute Friday: Again

Five Minute Fridays are hosted by Lisa Jo Baker.  It is open to anyone, so to learn more about it - and to jump in yourself (the more the merrier!) or just to find a linky to see what everyone is writing about today - click HERE!  The idea is to simply write... for Five Minutes flat... no editing, no deep thinking - or at least REthinking, no spell check - just write! Let it flow! We all write using a prompt that Lisa posts at one minute past midnight Friday morning (EST.)  I'm loving the community of amazing bloggers and the creativity that flows from these magical Five Minutes!

So - here goes:
Five Minute Friday - AGAIN

This can not happen again... I missed the last two weeks now of the Five Minute Friday Twitter Party.  I can't explain how I miss those girls!  We have never met in person... and really have only begun being friends - but these sisters, these Daughters, these amazing women of God speak into my life and push me forward and I should have made myself come... sit here (or there - on Twitter!) and be real.  Instead - I entertained cruel imaginations and felt heaviness and despair wrap itself around me.  I should have come... luckily, within minutes... ok - maybe an hour... I snapped out of it and cranked up some music and worshiped my way back into a peaceful silence... quieting the downward spiral of thoughts that were pulling at me; whispering old familiar lies that can seem more real than Truth!

Wasn't I just talking about how the Love of God is All IN, and He comes at us Full ON... wasn't I just saying how important it is to remember even when we don't see it... when we don't feel it!  Then, out of nowhere, I am slammed into by an unseen force, a eucharisteo moment and I am feeling anything but thankful.  My thoughts turn to accusations and while I am not speaking it out loud - my heart is thumping, racing, running anywhere but here... I am wondering, "Where is Grace NOW?  Did You run out... are You withholding?"

Thank God I do not speak it... but thinking it can be even more dangerous.  When you speak it out - maybe someone will repeat it back to you and you will see the way it is twisted up and just wrong.  Thinking it can lead you down a spiral staircase that will get you no where good!

So I crank up the stereo... I lift my hands and my heart... and reluctantly my eyes... and that is when I saw it... again!  Again, I saw it - well, Him!  He was coming at me, full on and it reminded me of what I had been saying and I had to brace myself for His Full On love to wash over me and again... I saw it. I saw myself taking a step back in order to remain standing tall.

Sometimes it feels like we are going backwards or being knocked off course... but even then, He is right there with us... loving and covering and wrapping Himself around us and I knew I had the choice then and there... choose Him... or choose the despair.

Always... Again and Again... I choose Him!


Isn't it amazing how quickly something can come at us and knock us off center... and how quickly lies can feel like truth.. and how quickly we forget that we have a choice in it all... and how quickly - when we turn our attention to Him - He comes at us - FULL ON! (Did I not just write that here last week?)

Here... this should make the choice easier... I know it did for me!
(Thanks sweet Jennifer!)


Five Minute Fridays gives us the chance to dive right in and share what He puts on our hearts!
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  1. Yes! To worship anyway. To lift hands and surrender. To give thanks in the mess anyway. And He comes and meets us even there. I am joining you in choosing Him today, and everyday...again and again. Blessings to you!

  2. Loving your imagery of God coming back for us like waves! His love is amazing and constant and true. Worshiping with you with the stereo kicked up loud!

  3. I'm glad you joined today and that I clicked on your icon at the link-up!

    I am very encouraged by what you wrote!

  4. loved reading your writing.. thank you for inviting me to your party :-)

  5. OH, how He loves us with an AMAZING LOVE! Love the song and love your words, Karrilee!

  6. oops...looks like my comment got lost...I could so relate to what you were saying, and how worship of God re-focuses me on what is true and the TRUTH of His love ...great post, Karrilee :)

  7. Let's just cut to the chase and tell you that I'VE MISSED YOU!!!

    and I get your heart so much, friend.

    Music speaks to my heart when words can't. you know that. and I'm so thrilled you can crank the tunes :) Love you!!

  8. Hi Karrilee
    I see I have missed your post at FMF, but I am glad o find you at Barbie's! Yes, dear one, what can we do or even want than choosing Him again and again and again!
    Much love XX

  9. There is nothing that snaps me out of times of despair than worship music. Ironically, as I sit here and comment on this post, my husband my daughter are on their guitars, singing this very song. No kidding! Oh how He loves us! Blessings my friend!

  10. Yes, this... ' cranked up some music and worshiped my way back into a peaceful silence.' Exactly! Amazing how good music can work through us like that! Beautiful. Thanks so much for sharing with us 'in the studio' this week! :)


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