February 20, 2018

When You Just Can't See...

(...as in, quite literally!)

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So, I was just humming along
trying to keep my goal of posting
twice a week here and showing up
at the #fmfparty Twitter party to
reconnect with my tribe
and finding my flow
and then... 

Well... then I finally went to the eye doctor
because these headaches and migraines
were getting worse and more frequent
and as much as I thought they were stress related,
I wanted to know one way or the other!

You should know that I have
a history of battles with/for my eyes.
I was born with cataracts
and had them removed as a teenager
as I was quickly losing my sight.  

I have warred and declared
and prayed for healing in
big (read: miraculous) 
and small (read: no more floaters!) 
ways for all of my days. 

I don't often take
the gift of sight
for granted!

Anyway - the eye doctor ran some tests
and while all the biggies are good...
(retinas healthy and intact, 
no new cataracts trying to grow back,
no glaucoma, etc.) 
she took a good look at my corneas
and sent me home.

February 14, 2018

The Problem with Shaken, Not Stirred...


I have to say it...

I love it when God 'speaks' to me with a sense of humor.
He's so funny... sometimes it's when I am so not laughing... 
but sometimes He just cracks me up.

He's good at that... 
using humor to lighten you up just before giving a one-two punch of Truth to get your full attention!

Does He do that with you?

He knows I love to laugh.

Laughing is my favorite and Joy is my OneWord this year and sometimes... well - sometimes He wakes me up in the middle of the night and whispers the craziest things!

On Saturday night I fell asleep praying about what to pray into the next day at church.  One of my favorite 'jobs' has been praying at the end of our worship at Dad's House.  I sometimes have a Scripture or an idea in mind, but usually God interrupts my worship and changes my direction come Sunday morning. So I have learned to plan with my hands and heart wide open. 




I'm good with that, because I want to pray His heart into the people and release whatever it is that HE wants released...

February 9, 2018

Privilege... A Five Minute Friday post.



I couldn't not show up at ALL last night over on the Twitter, but I had been battling a migraine all day long. My day was full of good things - but oh so bossy, and so by the time I sat myself down in this chair, in front of this screen --well, my body was ready to just shut. it. down. man! So I said a quick hello, and went to a darker room and (mostly) closed my eyes for the evening! I woke up feeling MUCH better, praise God!

The Five Minute Friday community is the best gathering of Flashmob writers around!  We wait for the one word prompt and we throw caution and hesitation and editing to the wind, and we let our fingers fly and our feelings feel and we just wait and see what flows out in five minutes (or so! Because, grace!) and we hit Publish without second guessing or backspacing! Our one word prompt is: PRIVILEGE

{GO}

I see the word and catch my breath... because, of course!


This is a current buzzword that can stir up passion and debate and even if as it is uncomfortable, it is so important!

Sadly, it was only a few years ago that my eyes began to truly open.

I honestly didn't know... I very likely could have sided with many who continue now to say that White Privilege is not even a thing --at least not for them. 

As I wrote about in 2014 in a post titled #GoingThere (thanks to posts and in real life conversations with my friend Deidra Riggs), "Ignorance is Bliss only for the Ignorant!" and I went on to acknowledge that was me... I was ignorant...

February 7, 2018

A Look Back on January... aka What I'm Into - January 2018

I saw my friend Barbie do a Reflections post last week and it reminded me of the olden days when I used to play along with the What I Learned link up.

I always loved those posts because they were fun and (mostly) lighthearted and because they invited me to look back over a month or a season and really reflect on what we had lived through and learned.

I've stated it plain, over and over. Last year was hard. I'm sure we learned ALL KINDS of things... but I was not really wanting to dive into the past when it felt like we were just barely hanging on.

But with this new year, and the return to committing to sitting here at least twice a week and sharing my heart, well - I feel a shift and yes.. even a bit of Joy in the pondering.

So let's go... Let's reflect a bit over January and see what we were into!



February 2, 2018

The Importance and Power of Agreement... A Five Minute Friday post.

Can you believe January has already come and gone?

I'm trying to find my rhythm again, sitting here in this chair. It feels good to be back on a somewhat consistent basis! I'm so glad you are here!

The Five Minute Friday community is the best gathering of Flashmob writers around!  We wait for the one word prompt and we throw caution and hesitation and editing to the wind, and we let our fingers fly and our feelings feel and we just wait and see what flows out in five minutes (or so! Because, grace!) and we hit Publish without second guessing or backspacing!

Our one word prompt is: AGREE

{GO}

I'll never forget it...

The night I learned a miraculous lesson about 
The Importance and the Power of Agreement!



A friend had called from the hospital, having given birth to her newborn son too early.  He was tiny and weak and his lungs were not yet fully formed.  She asked me to pray. She asked me to rally others near and far to pray, too!

We were praying for fully developed lungs on the next X-ray!

January 31, 2018

When God is Silent and All You Can Do is Wait...


I am all about
Quiet and Calm... 
About Slow and Sabbath.

It took me years to give in to it,
to embrace it.
But this is actually
how I am wired.
As in, God made me this way
on purpose, for a purpose.
I used to fight against it... 
I used to try to keep up. 
And then I just gave up
and didn't try at all for a season.



But here's the deal: 
 I still have to do stuff! 

Being wired Calm... 
being a slow, internal processor
is not all sleeping in
and being alone
(aka: introvert dreams)... 
It's not about being
passive or ineffective. 
It's about being
extremely intentional
and very effective, 
within healthy boundaries.


It took me years to figure out
what those boundaries look like.

January 26, 2018

I Surrender Some... A Five Minute Friday post.


What is this? 2013? Tonight makes FOUR weeks... in a row, people!!! 

The Tribe that gathers online on Twitter on Thursday nights that make up the Five Minute Friday community is the best gathering of Flashmob writers around!  We wait for the one word prompt and we throw caution and hesitation and editing to the wind, and we let our fingers fly and our feelings feel and we just wait and see what flows out in five minutes (or so! Because, grace!) and we hit Publish without second guessing or backspacing!

Tonight one of our own seems to be nearing the end of life on this side of Heaven... and so in Andrews' honor, as we pray for God's Presence to be thick around him, our one word prompt is: SURRENDER

{GO}

Surrender.

I see the word and I think, yeah. That.
And a heavy sigh quickly follows.



Why is it that when we think of Surrender, it's all shadowy and defeated? Immediately we feel the loss --of something, even if we don't know what!

We see the giving up or giving in parts, but we don't often rush to fully embrace the ceasing and yielding parts. 

There can be such Peace in those parts! 
Why do we kick against actually doing the Surrendering
when it can so often lead to relief and rest?

I think of the modified hymn, I Surrender Some...

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