June 29, 2015

I Will Never Forget -- But Then Sometimes I Do...

You know how it is with those sweeping statements! We all say them from time to time, and in the moment we truly believe them.
"I will never..." or "I will always..."

...and I think our eternal God just laughs and laughs.

Last week was a Long. Week.  Am I right?  For some it was filled with celebrating, and for some it was filled with mourning - for many it was filled with a bit of both. 

This is real life and we all have things come at us that pull on our hearts and call us to our knees. I'm not even talking politics or national and international news. I'm talking in your real every day routine, life comes at us. 

I don't know about you, but I know I gave my heart and my life to God years ago. It's just that sometimes I forget...

I sing it loud, "Lord, You have my heart!" and I mean it, and I think I will never forget... but then sometimes I do.

Sometimes He taps me on the shoulder and holds His nail-scarred hands out to me, waiting for me to once again place my heart where it belongs. In His loving and capable hands.

Life comes at me and things unfold and unfurl and All. the. Feels. start to unwind and all of the sudden, I am acting like my heart - my opinion, my very life - is my own.  But it's not.  I freely offered it to Him and asked Him to take and make it a sacrifice... make it holy... make it shine... make it look more and more and more like this Jesus whom I am so madly in love with!

Yesterday, at Dad's House, we talked about Freedom. We have been laying our foundation, digging in to our Core Values before our official launch day and it just so happened that we planned to talk of freedom long before this last week unfolded.  I don't know what your facebook newsfeed looked like... I hope it was diverse. But even with my diverse Friends List, I was discouraged by both sides.  The Jesus that was being talked about is not the One I know.  

Our pastor said it best with a status update on Sunday. 

He wrote:
I think there are two Jesus's people are talking about over the last couple days. The Jesus who only preaches love, and the Jesus who only preaches condemnation. I'm sticking with the real Jesus who was so committed to destroying the power of sin that He didn't just talk about it - He DID something about it. The Jesus who loved the prostitute so much that she couldn't help but be changed in His presence! The Jesus who tore the religious leaders a new one every time He encountered them. The Jesus who washed the feet of the man who betrayed Him. The Jesus who was more focused on the man being crucified next to Him than His own crucifixion. The Jesus who said marriage is important and worth honoring. The Jesus who partied with drunkards and gluttons and prostitutes to the point He was accused of being one. If you're anti-homosexual, Jesus is NOT on your side. If you're pro-gay-marriage, Jesus is NOT on your side. He is NOT taking sides! He is on His own side, and it is we (ALL OF US) who are being beckoned to come to HIM. To the judgmental Christians, Jesus says COME. To the homosexual community, Jesus says COME. Those who come to Christ are broken, every one of us. And in Him, we ALL find completion and transformation. I don't need to change any less than you, and you don't need to change any more than me. The Gospel makes EVERYONE and EVERYTHING better.
I can not tell you how much I love this. This is why when God and Shawn asked us to come alongside and start Dad's House - we said yes. This heart... this passion... this truth. The Gospel makes everything better.  If it's not making it better, it's probably not Gospel!

So no matter what 'side' you are on... no matter what your heart and hands are saying - whether wide open with hope, or clench-fisted with frustration... if you, like me, gave your heart to God then we must remember that He doesn't pick sides and He is the owner of our hearts. 

As we gathered yesterday to worship, we could feel it in the air... something was going to happen. Before one chord was played, God was there. After a long hard week, He was so excited to meet with His bride - and we came. We gathered and poured out our hearts that belong to Him... we let Him have His way. His way is always filled with Love and Grace and compassion.

There was one point during worship - well, the tangible Presence of God was thick in that room and I could barely stand... at one point, -we'll just say it like this: There were more voices in that theater than there were people.  I got up to pray at the end of the service and with shaky knees on holy ground I found the mic and paused. He likes it when we pause, when we wait on Him. I breathed in deep and prayed for the big things... for Charleston and churches burning... for many who are crying out and don't feel heard or seen... for grace to pour out and for love to win.  

I'm really not sure what I prayed but I know in the midst of it somewhere I said something about how we are not here to make a political statement, but we are here to make a Gospel statement and that statement is this: Love wins!

Love wins!  And can I just say this? Love wins easier when we remember that we gave our hearts away and laid our lives down to follow Him.  

It's HIS side... It's by His pierced side and under the Almighty shadow of His wings that we stand. 

It's His love that we pour out... Always... 

"Lord, let us never forget..."
(but then sometimes, we do.)

P.S.  I'm linking up with these lovely writers:

The Community over at #SmallWonders 

Karen Deschenes Courcy for #TuesdayatTen

Laura Boggess over at #ChasingTheBlueFlower
Holly Barrett for #TestimonyTuesday

Kelly Balarie for #RaRaLinkUp


  1. Love this...the Gospel is that love and it does change people and change hearts and we are all the better for it. Your neighbor at Small Wonder!

    1. Amen, neighbor! Amen! (Thanks for stopping by, Nannette!)

  2. I have been thinking of how we just have to set our eyes on Jesus and how all things will fall right into place. People follow love first. Amen. Cheering you today from Laura Bogess' site.

    1. We make it so much harder than He intended it to be, don't we? It's the kindness of God that leads to repentance - for all of us! When I hand Him my heart (again and again) - it's His lovingkindness that draws me in! Thanks so much for stopping by Kelly! xoxo

  3. I wrote about forgetting this week too, Karrilee. It's crazy how with such priceless treasure, we forget all that He has laid before us. But oh that pesky flesh. :) So grateful that we have that gospel story at our fingertips, written on the tablets of our hearts, and whispered to us from His Holy Spirit. So, so glad that love wins - that in Him we are victors always. Blessings to you, friend! #testimonytuesday

    1. Amen, Tiffany! Kindred... I am off to read your post! Thanks for stopping by!

  4. Yes! Yes, Karrilee. Love wins. Sometimes I need to remind myself that we already know the end of the story--that we are living in the not yet but already won time. It challenges me sometimes. Thank you for this encouragement. Much love to you today.

    1. Don't we all need the reminder? We forget... or we doubt because, goodness it doesn't always look like Love is going to win! But we know the end of the story... and we know His heart! Thanks so much for stopping by! Praying for you today, friend!

  5. This is so good, Karrilee. Thanks for sharing this with #RaRaLinkup today! And Yes--Amen!!! "The Gospel makes everything better!"

    1. Amen! Thanks for popping over for a visit Angela! Here's to the Gospel making everything better!

  6. Hi Karrilee! I pray that all of us can remember that one fact...love wins. It always will, because Christ is our Lord. If we can strive to be like Him, our world will be a much better place.
    It sure sounds like you had a POWERFUL service! God is so good to show us that He will never leave us...no matter what.

    From #RaRa Linkup,

  7. Have you read Rob Bell's book "Love Wins?" So good!!!

    1. I think I paged through it when it first came out. I know he's controversial and I'm sure I don't agree with all of what he says - but I love how he is out of the box, I love his creativity and how he can weave a story, and - of course - I love that Love wins!


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