Time has been my focus this year. --Or more specifically, remembering to spend it like money... to invest it and be mindful of managing it better... not wasting it away (or netflixing it away, or busying it away...) but staying present and purposeful in the time allotted to me each day.
If you do this well, then you love all the quotes about how we've all been given the same amount of time... you relish in how it feels to get All The Things done and somehow have time to spare. To spare, ya'll! I have days like that too, but lately- not too many in a row, and I am working on that!
I am in a season now where I have a lot of time on my hands... my nest is empty and my hours are plenty and yet, still, I can find 5pm sneaking up on me too quickly with little to show for my day!
I am reminded of my Summer of Silence (#10) and how God taught me that doing nothing and resting are not the same, and that often, when I am willing to be still, He is at work deep down and while I have nothing on the surface to show productivity, productivity that is eternal is happening nonetheless!
But here is what He is reminding me lately...
While I am bound by time, He is not. He moves inside and outside of time and when we remember this --well, we remember that time can be a gift or a burden, and we get to decide!
As I have been more intentional in spending my time wisely, I have also been more mindful of seeking out Wonder! Counting Gifts and looking for how He is with me through out my every days. I told a friend last week that Wonder shows us that God is active in our lives and I prayed with her that we would be Carriers of His Presence and Distributors of Wonder!
Yes. That. Let's do that!
With less bossy lists, and more wide open spaces on my calendar, I am being drawn to quiet corners and longer times lingering in worship... in conversations with God... in sometimes just sitting with Him with no other motive or need than to just be at peace with the Prince of Peace. For this world is hard and heavy and full of darkness - but He is none of those things, and He is readily available to us... to lift the burdens and carry the yoke... to be Light within us and to shine brightly through us - but we must fill up.
Not in an add-one-more-thing-to-my-list kind of way, but in a do-this-one-first-and-the-rest-will-get-done kind of way... In a bring-Me-with-you-and-let-Me-help-you-throughout-your-day kind of way, and who wouldn't want that?
Time spent with Him is a gift... and we can go about our busy days and full schedules and be spending time with Him all the while, or we can let time feel like it is the boss of us and that we are always short changed of it. We get to decide if we manage time or if time manages us. We get to choose if it is a gift or a burden, and to choose wisely, we choose Him.
I think in our loud, chaotic world - we forget that God is at work, at all times, working things out for our good. I think we forget that He is with us, IN us, ...that He calls us His friend, His beloved, His Bride. We forget that He is intimately aware and in tune with us and when life feels heavy, often our knee-jerk reaction is to just push through... to do it on our own, head down, will strong, determination flaring and all the while, He is right beside us, willing and wanting to help a sister out! I think some of our hardest days break His heart too but not just because ours is breaking, but because He is right there, able to help, and we forget... or worse yet, we believe a lie that He's too busy or won't come through for us. We forget to hope... to dare to believe...
Let Hope arise, ya'll! He is good! He is a good God. He can be trusted!
He moves inside and outside of time... He is looking for true worshipers who will worship in Spirit and in truth... He is longing for time... He is a jealous God and oh so loving and what He wouldn't give for a little reminiscing!
Through prayer, He revealed this and captured my heart and simply took my breath away:
As much as we like to hang out with friends who know who we are and who love us and who have all this history with us --who can pull up a private joke or stories that happened years and years ago and it just strengthens that connection and bond...
Jesus has known us since the beginning of time! Some of His favorite memories of us are ones that we haven't even lived yet!
You Guys... I just can't get over that!
He holds all of time in His hands, and He shuffles through it and pulls out memories of events and conversations, of answered prayers and breakthroughs and He looks on them with such love and adoration and they haven't even happened here on earth yet!
I don't know what that does for you, but for me? That makes me want to be mindful of how I spend my time... I don't want to miss one of His favorite memories of me because I was too busy, or too spent, or too unaware of His Wonder and His Voice calling out to me, "This is the way. Walk in it."
Linking up with these lovely ladies:
The Community over at #SmallWonders (Formerly Unforced Rhythms)...
Holly Barrett for #TestimonyTuesday
Kelly Balarie for #RaRaLinkUp
Jennifer Dukes Lee for #TellHisStory