Aaah yes... the best laid plans.
Yesterday we talked about how even those are subject to change. They too bow down in the Presence of the Lord and sometimes, despite our best efforts and most heart-wrenching prayers... they still don't work out.
But Jesus told us, right? He said that in this world, we would have trouble. He pretty much promised us that things won't always go our way. I can muster up a bit of adulting when this happens most of the time. I mean, I'm not spoiled... But sometimes I get pushed around... knocked off center and I feel the full weight of disappointment of plans and dreams that don't work out. It is in those times, that I want to remind Him of His Word... (--which, by the way, I think is a really, really, really great practice! For real!)
I want to taunt Him a bit with Psalm 37. It's always one of the first ones that come to mind...
Come on... I know you know it...
"Delight yourself in the Lord; And He will give you the desires of your heart." (Psalm 37:4 NASB)
I'm usually all like, "What's up with that, Lord? The desires of my heart, huh? It sure doesn't feel like this is true!"
He is usually pretty loving in how He reminds me to look at the first part of that verse; to just go there and camp out and do that some more... do more of delighting myself in the Lord and maybe less jumping ahead of His timing or will, and maybe stop making plans without asking Him first.
He's not so fond of the Do First, Ask Second trick.
He's on to us with that one, you guys!
I remember being a bit heartbroken for a season. He seemed to open doors for me, only to slam them shut before I had the chance to walk through. I was confused and thought for sure it was His hand I saw extended to me. So I spent some time rebuking the enemy and demanding
His my way.
When that didn't work, and didn't bring me any peace, I
whined inquired of the Lord about it and asked Him about Psalm 37. I mean... that seems like a really great promise... and a little like a deal! Like, I agree to delight in Him and then He agrees to give me whatever I want, right?
Sweet! I mean... He's pretty amazing... so delighting in Him is not that hard! I felt like I got the bargain end there.
Then this is what He whispered to my wondering heart:
I will give you the desires of your heart, when you remember that your heart is Mine!
I tend to take it back... protect it a bit and build up a few walls... I tend to think I've got this on my own. I can do it. And honestly, independence is great... He doesn't want us to stay wounded and needy... He is looking for a bold and beautiful Bride - spotless and pure.
He whispers truth to me and then I remember that, years ago, I gave Him my heart. It's His to do with what He wants... He gives me the desires of my heart, when my heart is His - wholly and completely. When I remember that He holds my heart, and our heart is united and one... well, then I begin to remember Kingdom ways and what brings pleasure to my King.
Oh right... there is that!
He is my desire.
And He freely gives Himself to all who ask... to all who seek... to all who invited Him in!
I look back to that season now and Oh My Goodness, I am so thankful that those doors closed. There was a long season that 'thankful' was not the word I would choose.
But hindsight, you know...
On this side of things, I can see the trouble I could have gotten into... the paths that could have led me on a journey that I wasn't meant to take.
We're not always blessed with that kind of clarity though.
Sometimes we look back still confused, or we are looking forward still waiting and longing for a desire or two... and it's fuzzy and seems unfair.
I have a few of those things, too.
In those situations, I think we pray... we remind Him of His Word... we invite Him to come alongside us and plan and dream together... and we remember to choose to trust Him... and to delight ourselves in Him. We remember that above all else, HE is the Desire of our hearts!
We hold fast to His Word and remember that He will give us the desires of our heart, when we give our hearts to Him!
They are His anyway... we gave them to him long ago...
It's just that Sometimes We Forget!
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